Loneliness

Hi guys!! <3 Good to write again :)!

                                 

Yesterday, I was at school. And there was a classmate, whose father came to school and she saw him and she was so happy to see him and jumped right on him. When I saw it, I was very happy for her because she is happy, but on the other hand I was very sad. It happens many times. Every time I see someone being happy with his/her dad, I become sad and jealous. He left me when I was around 4 years old. And I never really thought about him when I was little and I never thought that it would affect me. But as I grow older, I think a lot more about it. And sometimes I just ask myself, was I not good enough for him? Was I not good enough for him to stay and care for me? Or at least just come by now and then and just show that he does care about me? Wouldn’t my life be a lot better and easier if I would have a father next to me and supporting me? Whenever I see a happy family, I just feel lonely within a second. I don’t mean that I don’t appreciate my mom, my life or anything. My life is great. These are just my thoughts now and then. Tell me your story and experience and how you deal with it if you want, I’m there for you. Thanks for reading ! xx

Yours, Lucy